Would I Change My Situation
I have been asked quite a few times: if I had the chance to go back to the night of the accident and change it, would I?
You would think it was the easiest answer in the world. You would think my answer would be YES without hesitation.
The truth is that it’s not a simple yes/no answer.
Of course, I wish I never got hurt, but if this situation wouldn’t have happened, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I couldn’t tell you who or what I would be. I was a little lost right after college, not knowing exactly what I wanted to do. I never expected what happened to happen. If you would have told me i would have two books published, a podcast, blog and that I would be speaking in front of crowds I would have thought you were crazy.
Sometimes bad things have to happen for the good things to happen. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, but unfortunate life circumstances happen and sometimes the only thing to do is go through them until they pass. I may be in pain everyday, but through it all I have met some amazing people with incredible stories. I have a strong community with the Central Pain Syndrome Foundation. I have learned who is really there for me.
It’s crazy how one thing can have a ripple effect that not only changes my life but also the lives of those around me. I wish I could change the situation to help the people around me not have to go through it with me. I may have dealt with it physically, but my parents, my family, friends and boyfriend all went through it emotionally and mentally with me, too. For that I wish I could have done anything so they didn’t have to get hurt in those ways.
We know every rose has it’s thorn and my strength is the rose to my getting hurt. I know I can’t go back no matter how much I want to so the only thing I can do is to keep moving forward and continuing to BE FOREVER STRONG.
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